Ray Woes :)

Jake bought me another Michael Kors bag. Its so pretty, a beautiful hot pink, that matches these MK sandals I bought earlier this year. He bought it over to Kendall’s that night before he went to work and that was that. But later for Jake, I’ve got some scoop!

Time to do a little history lesson people.

Last December the week of Christmas another BFF of mines, Tish, was begging me to go to some holiday party with her. She didn’t even work for the company throwing it but it was one of those jobs that everyone in the city worked for. Like a Power Plant or Shipyard. The go-to job, every city probably has one and it employs thousands, mostly guys.

Tish was heavyset and absolutely stunning. She dressed her weight so well, but I could tell it still bothered her. Tish was older then me by a year and we had been friends and enemies at one point. But we were back on track now and had been for the past few years, she was even in my wedding party.

Any who the holiday party was at some local bar and I grudgingly got dressed in a red H&M fitted dress and black leather ankle booties, and fishnet stockings. I had this leather blazer I was obsessed with during the fall and winter and I threw that over my dress, grabbed a designer clutch and raced outside of my high rise to meet Tish. I LOVED my high rise by the way. It was extremely overpriced but it screamed “fancy”.

We made it to the bar and the first person I see is my male best friend Jamison. Jamison is SUPER SUPER cool. He was the nerdy type growing up, but those types are usually the ones who it all works out for. He was single and constantly trying to mingle, and even though he had been a nerd, he was quite the catch these days. He had some new girl he was seeing and me and Kendall despised her. Jamison was extremely l;oose with his cash and this chick totally took advantage. She was there that night too, being extra and staking her claim. We had to get rid of her quick. I made a mental note to tell Kendall this floozie was once again being a nuisance.

I posted up beside Jamison and his friends and looked around the scene. It was good to be in the presence of employed men for once. Me and Cam were not together and he was down south having a good old time, it was time for me to start doing the same. Jamison offered me a drink and I nodded no, I wasn’t big on drinking. Once I turned back around a guy we went to high school with had came over and was chatting with Tish. I knew him but not KNEW him if that made sense. I definitely didn’t remember him from high school, but I knew I was familiar with him. I promise this is important! His name was Ray. He gave me and Tish quick hugs and kept it moving. I didn’t think anything of it until an hour later.

You know how you can feel someone staring, I turned until I spotted the culprit and there was Ray checking me out. He was definitely cute, about 6’5, 6’6, chocolate and in shape. He had to work out 8 days a week, 25 hours a day. I smiled and looked away. It felt good to know I still could catch an eye.

The night ended soon after that and we were on our merry way. Two days later I had to take Baby Boy to the emergency room, he had been running a fever and wasn’t keeping anything down. While we waited for the doctor to diagnose him, Tish texted me.
Tish: Someone has a crush on you.

Me: Who?

I wanted to know but I wasn’t amused, I had my fair share of guy drama with Cam, no need to add another no good nothing to the list, and he was probably no good.

Tish: Im not telling you just wanted you to know someones interested!

Why do people do that, that irked my darn nerves and sent me to irritation mode in .5.

Me: So what the eff did you even bring it up for Tish? BYE!

Tish: Ok, ok, its Ray

Me: Who?

Tish: Ray….. we saw him the other night remember?

Me: Nope

Tish: Jaycee quit, you know Ray, he went to high school with us he use to be really short and skinny now he’s all built and tall

That explained a lot, the little turd had grew up!

Me: Well how do you know?

Tish: Ummm he hit me up on KIK asking if you were seeing anyone, I said nope, because technically that marriage of yours is over if you ask me, this is perfect.

Me: Does he know I have a baby?

That was my new biggest fear when I considered moving on. How would people react to me being a mom? I mean of course they had to accept it, Baby Boy was here to stay, but still I didn’t know how to bring it up, do I just blurt it out? “Hey, Im Jaycee, I have a son!” or wait and try to ease it in. Dating was not my cup of tea I have ALWAYS been in relationships, they were so much easier.

Tish: I don’t know prob not Jace, I’m not telling him, what do you want me to say?

Me: Give him my number, tell him text me

So she did and 5 minutes later I get a text that was quick huh, usually people waited a few days, or at least a few hours. We chatted and chatted and chatted, and it just so happened we were off the whole week of Christmas. The convo took place on a Sunday and by Monday he was taking me out on a little dinner date. It went cool, he picked me up and I finally bought up the children topic. If he seemed turned off he didn’t show it.

Turns out he was really into working out and eating right, so on Christmas I took my little butt to the grocery store and the arts and crafts store and whipped up a homemade fruit basket. I was proud of myself. I tried to buy one honestly, but I couldn’t find the crap anywhere. He came over to get it and of course thought I was super sweet and we went on our separate ways for the holiday. We got back up that night, which was Christmas night. After doing the family thing me and Kendall went to Fridays. I told her I wanted her to peep our interaction so I invited him up and he came. We were so awkward but I still liked him nonetheless. I think we were both just shy, someone had to be the aggressor!

Over the next month we hung out….. a lot. It was Winter and we got a lot of snow this year so work was being shut down left and right, how cute was being snowed in together?
He would to come to me moreso because of Baby Boy, I didn’t let him see him at first I’d tell him he could come over after 8 p.m. when Baby Boy went to bed. And if we were going out Baby Boy was usually with my mom for the weekend. I loved hanging out with him but the chemistry was off. It was always awkward still.

But we were so cute. He would come over and cook dinner, or he’d stay over and I’d wake up and make chicken and waffles (only thing I could cook really, I got a waffle maker as a wedding gift). We went double dating with his friend once and he took me to his parent’s house, they weren’t there though so that probably doesn’t count for anything.

But the point is we were hanging really tight when we could. He was in school for his job and of course I worked and had the kid. So we made it do what it did. Once he got to my apartment and Baby Boy was still up so he saw him for a few minutes but nothing major at all. Baby Boy was super suspicious though and had no kick it for him lol. Mommie’s protector!

Then out of nowhere he started to distance himself until he was just……. Gone.

Did someone tell him something? Were we moving too fast? Was I making him mess up in school? Was it because Valentines Day was coming up? Guys do dumb mess like that to avoid having to buy a gift you know? I tried to hit him up and he would respond but something had definitely changed. We had never been sexual, he had told me it never took him a month to sex a girl and in my mind I’m thinking it had never taken less then 6 months for a guy to sex me. But he insisted I was worth holding off for because he liked me a lot. I was scary as crap, and because I started so late I always felt inexperienced when it came to sex. Kendall, Tish, Wendy, and Dani all seemed like porn stars in the bedroom. They made it seem so fun and I’m all like “Sex is so overrated”. So I assumed maybe I was just boring. Anywho he had ate me out once and afterwards just stared at me and it crossed my mind that MAYBE he was waiting for me to return the favor. NOT HAPPENING!
Lol I wasn’t even all that impressed with his oral sex and THAT was my thing. Either way we were done and for a while it bothered me.
Then Cam ended up getting a really good job as an Engineer for this huge big name company and we were starting to get on a good foot.

Clearly that did last and now we are back to present day. Last night me, Kendall, and another friend went to see ‘Think Like A Man Too”. It’s worth seeing but I wouldn’t give it 5 stars. Kevin hart makes the movie, super funny. While they were getting refreshments, I get to thinking about Ray.

It’s literally been months since we spoke. In March he sent a “Hope you get better text” when I was sick, and in April I sent a “Just checking on you text”. That’s it. I get some balls and text him.

Me: Are you ready?

I cut my phone off and watch the movie and by the time its over it’s almost midnight. I remember my phone is off and I turn it on only to see 0 messages. Well that was a genius idea Jaycee. 10 seconds later my phone is buzzing and all my missed messages are coming in at once. I go straight to the one that matters.

Ray: Lol what you mean?

Me: What the eff happened to you?

Ray: Should be asking you the same

Me: Well are you finally ready to tell me how you fell off my bandwagon?

Ray: The same way you fell off mine, how have you been?

We keep that up and say we have crossed each others mind and eventually he asks if I want to link up. I look at Kendal for her approval knowing better.

“Its after midnight Jace, you haven’t talked in months, you know what happened when you linked up with Dante after midnight last weekend, you almost got got!” she laughed.

I didn’t….. I was still traumatized from him whipping his dick out and thinking we were going to have sex that night, yuck.

I told Kendall he was right…… but I told Ray it could be arranged. I yawned acting like I was oh so tired and hauled tail out of there.

I didn’t go see him though, I went to sleep like a good girl an this morning he texted me.

My response: What time are you picking me up? You owe me a birthday outing!

Let’s see where the wind blows us the 2nd go round,  even though I’m still unclear what went wrong the 1st go round!