I don’t want it to appear I’m doing monthly updates lol but
hey it is what it is. I’m not a professional blogger by far and life has seemed
to have swept me off my feet this year. First things first those guys!
Eden: I have managed to steer clear of him in 2015. He tried
once: epic fail. No reply from me, I hear he’s having a girl. Congrats to them
and good riddance. I like it this way.
Deacon: I managed to duck him all in 2015 too, which was a
little harder since we attend the same church. I was gone so much of January it
was a breeze. I went to Mexico with an coworker (had a ball). And some other
things that kept my weekends out of my city. But, he never stopped texting and
emailing. He would always send SOMETHING “hoping me and Baby Boy were okay”. I
still igged them. February threw me off though. My family had a Valentine’s Day
party, like a huge one. It was great for losers like me who didn’t have a
Valentines. I was surrounded by LOVE and hardly noticed. We had dinner, danced,
sang, and had a good time all day and well into the night. My cousins came in
from out of town and Kendall, and some of my friends came with their kids, and
it was just really epic.
I was on Cloud 9 walking into early service that Sunday, I didn’t
look my best because I had stayed up late, but I felt good. I ALWAYS went to
early service, it was necessary. I knew Deacon NEVER went so I would never run
into him. This worked all year so far, so I was confident he would stay out of
sight, out if mind. I was worshipping, when all of a sudden the mood changed.
Something was wrong. I continued to sing with the church but in my peripheral none
other than Deacon came strolling into early service! I almost choked on my
words. And he was grinning, he knew he had caught me slipping. When we had meet
and greet he came right over and grabbed me into a tight hug, I couldn’t even
make a scene. I was pissed.
“Jaycee, Jaycee, Jaycee its SO good to see you, why haven’t you
answered my calls, texts, emails?” he was still smiling so people around us didn’t
notice.
“You are on my block list, that’s why” I smiled sweetly,
keeping up the charade.
“I miss you and Baby Boy though, we are better than this” he
started.
Service started again and he had to cut it short, but
afterwards h caught me again and we ended up talking for about 45 minutes. I can’t
say I regret it at all, it was really nice. He apologized, said it was some
things he should have done different and even if I didn’t want to work things
out he wanted to be friends. Nevertheless, he hoped I’d be willing to work it
out.
I left on that note. Kendall and I went to see 50 Shades of
Grey. Was anyone else pissed off at the end? I will not spoil it but wtf!
The next day was
Monday and a holiday so I was off. Deacon and I met for lunch, and all of a sudden
by the time we left a snowstorm had started. He agreed to go with me to get
Baby boy squared away at my moms, and we sat over there for hours talking with
her. I went to drop him off and ended up staying the night. The next day I woke
up and he made me breakfast and I left to go spend the day with my kid since
work was closed. That night I ended up back over Deacons. I was only planning
to stay an hour but I fell asleep and of course, he didn’t wake me. So, that’s where
me and him are. However, we def didn’t talk for over 2 months, can’t believe
that happened!
Derik is the one I
was talking about in the last post. We had gotten pretty deep. He lives out of
state but we were trying it out. I went close to his area one weekend last
month to meet up with Dani, and another one of our college friends. We bought
the kids and got a hotel suite and were just gonna hang out and catch up. I
told him I was close so to come by and long story short he didn’t. I was
pissed. So when I got back home he sent a confirmation. He had booked a hotel
in a city about an hour from me for us to meet up and hang out. That was a
start. We met up and I was EXTREMELY nervous, we had never had sex so I figured
this was it. We went out to dinner and decided to take shots. Mines were to
loosen me up, he had other drinks and the night went down from there. We def loosened
up but Derik got TOO loose. He got back to the room and was light headed and
everything. We attempted to do the do but about 5 seconds in he jumped back and
said he couldn’t. We ended up going to sleep. The next morning he told me the
condom had popped soon as he started and would I mind taking a Plan B pill. I did
not think that was necessary but he bought it so I took it. The situation
overall rubbed me the wrong way, do not ask me why y’all know I am weird. Therefore,
after that I kind of played him to the left, the distance is a blower anyway.
We’ve talked and stuff but I just was not as “into him” as I had been. I am not
big on Valentine’s day but he’s a romantic, so when he didn’t do a thing I
called him out on it. His response was lame: “I thought I still had your
address saved in my phone, I sent my mom flowers last minute, but I didn’t have
it anymore”. So you’re last minute Malcolm now? Not cool,
On the other hand
Wells Fargo did do something. He left a plant with balloons on my car. I hardly EVER talk to him I barely reply to texts. I’m just not that into him, yet he
stays on the radar somehow. But I make it clear I’m not pursuing anything. He
left the things on my doorstep. My cousins think he’s either really sweet or
really creepy. Lol
Cam is Cam lol that
is all I’ll say about him.
Everything else
is good, work is ughh, but I’m not stressing that.
I can’t believe
Deacon crept back up! ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh hes texting me now J
