Wacky Weekend

This weekend flew by but it was super long if that makes any sense..... but do I ever do? Friday after work I actually didn't want to go hang out at any happy hours. I went and got Kendall and her newborn, and Baby Boy of course and we had dinner at the mall, did a little shopping, and took Baby Boy to the playground after. Needless to say he was knocked out cold before we made it back home. Love nights like those!


I woke up Saturday to him poking me in my eyes. "Good morning Mommy, its time to get up!" I groaned but rose up to get breakfast ready and start getting us dressed. We were going to my Godsons football game that morning. When we arrived it was 1,000 effing degrees. I'm not lying. I planned on staying for an hour and slipping out. We stayed for 5 hours -_-. Baby Boy was having a ball and they had games for the kids so it ended up being a lengthy day.


We left around 3 and I went to get my mom and decided to go to the amusement park. We were season pass holders so any free time I got I used it. We stayed there until about 10p.m and she said she would keep him for the night. She wasn't doing me any favors, he was knocked out cold again he could've went home lol.


Of course my text line had been jumping all weekend. I no longer trusted my perfect Derek. He had a daughter the same age as my son. A few weeks ago he had told me that  he got a new phone and if his daughters mother inboxed me to just ignore it. Wait what? He didn't explain any further and I refused to talk to him until he did, and he finally caved in.


"Jaycee its not much to tell. I was picking my daughter up and she had my phone, somehow she opened my Facebook an her mom saw our messages and we got into a argument over it" he said calmly as if we were talking about the weather.


"Look cut the crap, that makes no sense, why would you get a new phone over that, and why would you all argue over that if you aren't together?"


"I had already been thinking about a new phone Jace, and I don't know why she argued, its stupid really" he was still calm.


I wanted to say "No you are stupid if you think I am buying that BS, but I got calm too and said "Ok!". I didn't have the energy to be bothered. He was 400 miles away, why even get all hype about it. He was up to no good and I was onto him. Sucks because he's really a nice guy, this is the first time I have had any sort of drama with him, even though it never was any yet technically.


Fast forward to this weekend and he's back to using his old phone like normal. So Saturday night 'm in the store at midnight looking for birthday gifts for a kids party Baby Boy was going to the next day and me and Derek are talking. He's headed home from work and when he gets there he hits me with "Let me get inside and settled and Ill call you in about 5 minutes"


I sighed "Don't bother, your 5 minutes is 55 minutes, Ill be sleep by then!"


"No seriously, 5 minutes" he bargained. I said ok, but my gut knew he wasn't calling back.


 Why? Because he got off the phone because he was with the girl or at her house, or something! I don't know which but it made sense. And he never called back! So I no longer trust him. He got caught slipping. He texted me yesterday talking about he had a bad day and wanted to talk to me to feel better. My response "Perfect, I'm still waiting for you to call back from last night!"


Don't try me!


I missed 1st service at church Sunday so I ran into Deacon at 2nd service. He wanted to go out to eat after and he wanted to take my mom so I said ok I would go. Then he decided just me and him should go. Not happening. I told him my mom cooked dinner and he came over after church. I had left early and he wasted no time trying to figure out where I went.
"I am your man Jaycee, I need to know these things" he sat beside me.
"You are most definitely not, either move over or just move period you are way too close, its hot, get off me!" I complained. My mom laughed and we spent the afternoon bantering back and forth. he was joking I was serious. I was not checking for him. Me and Kendall left a little after everyone had ate and ran some errands and went to the Birthday party for the afternoon.


Cam made me cry that night. I was exhausted after the party and he was coming over to cut Baby Boys hair. Baby Boy had fell asleep in the car an Cam pulled up as we got home and took him out for me. I asked him could he give him a bath because he was filthy from playing outside at the party.


"You give him one, and since hes sleep Ill cut his hair later this week" he said leaving.


"I give him one every night, can you do one thing since you are here dag!"


"Jaycee I saw all three of my kids mothers this weekend, yall are stressing me out, yall all want something all the time" he argued.


"That's my concern because? You should be more careful with your sperm" I spat out, "Look just give him a bath for me, that's the least you could do.


"No, bye and goodnight!" Cam headed out. I began to cry, I don't know why I think I was just frustrated. He noticed and I pushed him out and locked the door and grabbed my baby an started undressing him. About 2 minutes later, the doorbell rang. Of course his dumb self was back. He took his son from me and I heard him upstairs bathing him, then putting him in his bed. He came down and said Goodnight an left. Bastard. He started texting me, which annoyed me.


I never want you to hurt.


Sorry I made you cry.


I want to be with you and help you more but you have your guard up


I love you Jaycee lets work it out.


I threw the phone. Just be a father sheesh. I got myself ready for bed and I heard another text. This time it was Deacon.


Deacon: Im coming over.


I couldn't deal with any more men today. I turned over and went to bed. Wacky weekends right?! Other then those lames tho the weekend was perfect!

I'm not a Blogger!

It would be an insult to call myself a blogger because quite frankly I suck at it. Any little break throws me off. But someone posted and asked where I was so if even ONE person asks I come running!


I had to real my last post which was 4 months ago SHEESH! Soooooo much has changed. I was chasing Deacon in April now that tail is chasing me. I decided back in June I was done with him. I had a HUGE 30th birthday party, and the whole weekend was jam packed. All my friends came to town and Friday they threw me a House Party. I can admit I told Deacon last minute, it just wasn't his crowd. He was mad about that and didn't show and I'm not mad. I got super wasted and was passed out before midnight. The next day I spent it with a devilish hangover and finally got myself together mid afternoon. I got super dolled up because my "boo" was coming. "Ray" remember him? Of course you don't. The one I had met and we were perfect then he disappeared. Well he ended up coming back around an celebrating with me. The party was a freaking blast and I stayed sober. The sight of alcohol made me want to vomit for the rest of the summer.
Anywho Ray kicked it with me the rest of the weekend, and even after everyone left. We stayed up until 4 a.m. cleaning up from my house party. My last friend was leaving that Monday morning at 5 so we pulled an all nighter and took her to the airport then came back to my place and passed out. Ray did good for a few weeks but he is gone now. I don't know his deal but I give up trying. We were ok, then his job was sending him out for a few weeks, so you would think he would want to hang whenever we could/ I myself had trips lined up every weekend it seemed. I was going to DR for a week, then up North for 2 weeks, but he acted like it was no big deal. Long story short Ray left, I didn't see him. I've spoken to him once and he acted like nothing had changed, I cant live that life! lol


In the midst of this Deacon is steady trying to convince me he needs another chance, he didn't even get me a bday gift. He said he took it back, petty or what? Why even tell me that. I keep telling him we are better as friends, because I'm just not that into him anymore. I don't hang out with him or anything, I just respond to texts basically, and I've seen him at church twice this summer. He's not reeling me back in this time, I know its no point. He's too old for me and stuck in his way.


Derek is around, still lives 400 miles away but he's around. He bought me and Baby Boy bikes for my bday! If we lived in the same city I'd cuff him, he calls himself my boyfriend, but long distance is a joke (no offense) but for me it doesn't work.


I'm still at my same job no change. Its August apparently and I'm single and I'm fine with it. I'm not LOOKING for anyone, but soon as you stop looking they all start trying, so that's where I am. Even Dante Facebooked me this a.m. saying he missed me. I'm like you hid a whole baby for 9 months, kick rocks.


Eden and me communicate, but I don't love him in THAT way. I'm really good with friendship from him. He had his baby, she's ok. He's still miserable but that's not my problem. Enjoy that Eden.


Just trying to wrap it all up or catch up on everyone. My friends have been around all summer. They came down for Baby Boys birthday party, and we hit all the amusement parks. We got a timeshare last month and hung out with the kids for the weekend. Life is........ simple. And then there's Cam. Still a pain in my azz, still not doing his part, and still trying to get back together. He's not worth typing about. I don't know if I should just start back, or if its anyone I left out, or what so I'll play it by ear.